Showing posts with label anxiety. Show all posts
Showing posts with label anxiety. Show all posts

10.29.2013

Change meet Anxiety. Anxiety meet Change.

I am a creature of habit...even if what I'm doing is no longer a great fit.  I would rather stay in the same place than have to deal with the unknowns that change brings.  It makes me anxious....really anxious.   Like a knot in the back of your throat, am I making the right decision, I wish someone would tell me what to do type of anxious.
I need a change.  I want a change.  It just makes me nervous. I looked to the Internet for quotes of inspiration to help me through this awful feeling.  Here's what I've got:
wait
I always find reasons as to why now is not the time.  I think I've found reasons for the past year.  I've got to stop this vicious cycle.
change
I've got it great where I am right now.  Flexibility, Autonomy, A Family.  I just need something more.  I feel like I'm not being challenged.  I want a challenge.  ...Hopefully you'll remind me of this in the future!
faith
I am learning to have faith that everything will work out .  If not, I know that there are other opportunities.  Change just makes me so anxious and afraid.

timing
I know everything will happen exactly as it should, but it's different now.  Without a family, I probably wouldn't worry as much, but I have to.  There are people who rely on me.  People that need me.  People that I don't want to let down.
I want something better, but I'm so afraid to go after it.  The grass isn't greener on the other side, but is it better than this?

8.30.2013

5 on Friday

THE GOOD LIFE BLOG
One.
I miss my husband!  He's been out-of-town for the week and I am going crazy!  Not because I can't handle McKenzie, but because I miss him.  I miss us.  The house feels empty without him.  It's just not the same.  I absolutely can't wait for him to get home!
Two.
I am stronger than I realize! McKenzie and I spend lots of time together with just the two of us, due to Brian's schedule.  I never doubted that I could handle this week, but yet I did.  When I've done it in the past, Brian has only been a phone call away.  I always had a safety  net.  This week made me nervous because I don't have him nearby.  He's not even in a nearby state!  I managed though. Seriously though, how could you not love this kid?!
Three.
I am so looking forward to the long weekend!  It's going to be fabulous, even if the weather isn't going to be the greatest!  It's time to spend doing fun things with my loves!
Four.
It's been an emotional week with lots of ups and downs on all fronts. Thought this was appropriate! Well said, sir.  Well said.
Five.I had my very first Pumpkin Spice Latte from Starbucks yesterday.  I'm now officially ready for the Fall.  Although normally not available until September, to celebrate the 10th anniversary of the Pumpkin Spice Latte, if you give the code PSL 10, you can have one now!  You're welcome!

That's it for this Friday!  Have a great weekend!